so cruel

here i am again, suffering from pain, disappointmnet and betrayal. over and over i felt it, and over and over i let my self feel the pain, making my soul and sanity twisted and screaming for death. it takes four hard blow before i came into realization, it can't be and it would never be. hoping and dreaming for somewthing that never give guarantees of making it come true, just give me a shuddering blow. it makes my brain explode into bits. my head just ache, thinking where did i go wrong and what made it to happen. i'm just true to myself. eventhough there's a voice within me that kept saying "just forget all those things, live a new life, everything will be fine, look forward!." still, as being true to myself, i let my self be numb, deaf and blind with all those hushes. i take a chance and this chance work! that's what i thought! haha.... again it happen.... lies...lies...hopo....hope and promises,,,they were so cruel!!!

i'm surviving

its better to enjoy life committing mistakes and learn, rather playing safe in your entire life...and learning nothing at all!! damn those mocks and criticism they had on you....after all...who's life are you living????

sometimes....

sometimes, its hard to be strong,,for you had no right cry

sometimes, its hard to be understanding, for you had no right to ask why?

sometimes, its hard to be always happy, for you had no right to be sad

and sometimes, its hard to be 'alone', for you had no right to be loved!!

Promises

Deciding whether or not to trust a person is like deciding whether or not to climb a tree, because you might get a wonderful view from the highest branch, or you might simply get covered in sap, and for this reason many people choose to spend their time alone and indoors, where it is harder to get a splinter.