exhausted?

Trees That Wood

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty." Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull." Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me." After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest. At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship. When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down. When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time. Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat. Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it. The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

Everybody's fool -Evanescence ( My fave song!)

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

BSIT IV-UNITY!

BSIT IV-B official tee shirt

fever?

i was not feeling okay then, my head was throbbing, and it seems i caught a fever. i felt so tired and lonely, lonely? i can't explain why i felt it, it seems that there's something going on that not on my liking. i liked to cry hard, but it confuses me, why? and then, there goes the answer, they were walking together while i'm drifting away to the fever that i'm into. i tried to be strong and face the reality that mocking me, but i'm so tired to do it. i just settled to the thought that, it can wait for tomorrow, explanations should be heard. but i can't stop my hands fingernails pressing the keys of my cp, sending him the anger, pain and misery that i'm into. silence were the answer. i cursed, i cried and i hit. but it never subsided the pain and never erases the scene that i had seen. i tried again to send him messages,asking for explanations and clarity, again, silence answered me.i lost hope with it, i thought i had.

i reach out. but he ignored me
i humbled myself. but he don't seemed to care at all
i threw my pride. but he never looked
i tried. and he left


now, that i see it clearly now, i'm creating a world that where he doesn't existed. much better. i can stand the pain now, i can control the anger and i can make myself believe that we haven'tbeen.

Follow your mood today. If you're feeling depressed, it's for a reason -- trust it.

hERE'S my horoscope on November 26, 2008....it really did said something!


Just follow your mood today, and wherever it leads you will be the right place for you to be. If you're feeling depressed, you're feeling depressed for a reason -- so don't try to cheer yourself up. And if you're ecstatically happy, you're ecstatically happy for a reason. Do not try to make yourself feel a certain way -- especially for the sake of making other people comfortable. They can deal with you however you are, as long as you are your usual polite self.

Studying is a Good Habit!

serious studying for our expert system quiz.... much more serious.....no time for leisure talking

ga study poh with poise pa rin.....way to go reza!

pa study2x pasilabut thier minds wereinto the camera!

But we cant stop to be excited when a camera lens were roving.....here's why!

june irene saying hi to the camera!
ga pa cute na giud ni sila...for sure! may gapa cute...may sa daw wala lng....like this girl who seemed to be thinking way to deep

The Darkness

If only it were so simple,
to cruise through life smelling roses;
but the obstacles blacken the countryside,
and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots.

Dreams sustain us through the madness;
goals give a finish line to our race.
Yet they change with every turn, around every wall,
and remain elusive throughout the quest.

Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage;
we will drag them with us to slow us down.
The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us
to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends.

Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us.
Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us.
The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths,
yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness.

There are others trying to race to the end;
occasionally, we bump into one or two.
The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness.

Alone is not a bad way to be;
it clears your head and focuses you on the journey.
Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others,
but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness.

Dark Angels and the Demons

Misty & cold, darkness prevails,
The setting for many a tale.
But a tale like no other is what i tell,
Bringing you back from the brink of hell.
In a field surrounded by the undead,
Evil thoughts enter my head.
Demons coming at me with blades and spears,
installing in me some of my biggest fears.
And just as the blades cut my skin,
Dark angel take over that is hidden within.
She spreads her wings of powerful black,
Horns on my head im ready to attack.
Levitating from the ground,
Dark angels power casts the undead down.
20 of them - maybe more,
Lying in a pile of ash on the floor.
And once again wings gone and my feet firmly on the ground,
Stood in the mist there isn't a sound.
I turn and walk away into the dark of night,
To find myself back in my bed tucked up tight.
So was it a dream? I am unsure!
But the dark angel is within me and i cannot ignore!

Humanities pictorial...a chance to be discovered....

Fun, fun, fun!

mask of cowardice

facing the crooked face of your presence,

it sent shiver into my flesh which i can't contain.

my hands trembled when i attempted to touch your face.

oh, so full of sches

i can't comprehend why did it so

for all i know,

you are contented and always at glow.

it's just gives me confusion i cant grip

a crime where evidence is perfectly kept

and then you smiled

and then i realized your just lied.

oh, the mask you were wearing,

shield the cowardness you are hiding

given a question: are YOU ready to die?

for sure, it will give you chill and terror. But let's face it, whether we like it or not, we should be.I was thinking last night, actually, this sort of idea just slipped into my soul. What kind of death I would prefer? I don't want blood dripping out of my body, i don't want my body be twisted in pain, just like in accidents, they were gross and eery! i don't want my body to suffer excruciating pain, endless chemicals swarming my system, lying helplessly in bed, futile and worthless. I want instant death, just like walking and then fall to the ground, and that's it, no torture, no sufferings for myself and for my family.

death is lurking everywhere, waiting for that precious chance where he could snap your soul with his scythe. Absorb your energy into mindless fog of futile. You should not be scared, we are mortal and we were destined to be in this quest.

the girl with an almond eyes

the girl with an almond eyes

the girl with an almond eyes is broken.

the girl with an almond eyes is empty.

the girl with an almond eyes is crying.

broken. empty. crying.

all with the heart of death.

disguising.

the girl with an almond eyes is smiling.

the girl with an almond eyes is laughing.

the girl with an almond eyes is singing.

smiling. laughing. singing.

all with the lips of joy.

truth.

the girl with an almond eyes is alone.

the girl with an almond eyes is forlorn.

the girl with an almond eyes is sad.

alone. forlorn. sad.

all with the eyes of terror.

death is approaching, all that she waited.

death is coming ready to grab her.

death cannot be stopped, for she yields with love.

AutoCat: Automated Catalog system for NONESCOST Library

Information Technology evolves dramatically and the benefits that the world derived from this advancement of human greatly influenced the course of life that people are leading today. And with this perspective, the researchers focused on the library on which IT can be apply. Library is the place where students do their researches and studies about things that concern their educational development. Accessing the library manual system can be sometimes troublesome especially when dealing in card catalogue (catalog) for the purpose of searching books and references. Card catalogue (catalog) is somewhat obsolete for the students, for observing the library; students tend to go directly to the shelves and not consulting the card catalogs. Considering this situation, the researchers conduct a study regarding for the implementation of Automated Library Catalog System in NONESCOST library that convert conventional card catalog to computerized or automated catalog. Auto Cat can give students likewise the librarian a breather regarding for the searching of books, as well students can have easy and comfortable searches. Auto Cat, for less will be the answer for the students’ problems in searching books as well for the librarian and the school promise for good and quality facilities concerning education.

chance or choice?

what's the best?

chance or choice?....

Dark Matter by Garfield Reeves-Stevens

My favorite book: gruesome but fantastic! i love you Anthony Cross, the mad scientist!
(i had read it way back my 4th year in high school,, been read twice but still i'm totally crazy about this book!)

It opens as a gruesomely explicit tale of contemporary horror, with a serial killer cleaving the skull and dissecting the brain of a young girl while she is still alive. This event occurs in Stockholm, where a brillant young quantum physicist has just received a Nobel Prize and, against the wishes of his beautiful assistant and lover, signed a contract with a mysterious American group to pursue his research in Los Angeles. Four years later, in 1995 Los Angeles, a similar murder brings black police detective Kate Duvall onto the scene, and the story becomes a standard thriller, containing the stock elements of police corruption and shadowy government agents, and focusing on the detective's growing involvement. The action scenes are leavened with complex discussions of quantum physics and the nature of reality, building toward a science fiction-like ending. The bad guys introduce some jolting deus ex machina turns, and there is one too many ``final'' encounter between the opposing forces, but this novel could nonetheless catapult Reeves-Stevens to the top ranks of thriller/horror writers.

review: after the class reunion by Rona Jaffe

After the Class Reunion really got me influenced about something that need by consideration, wit, understanding and being a risk-taker, but to avail, the risk that i got had just give me a hard slap! Reading the book and let my awareness and open-mindedness leads me to a path of realization and awakening,,, now i'm proud to say, i've learned and i know i'll survive!

we're gooD!

hahaha... we are totally,, awesomely good!!! but, it truly hurt, i first believe we can make it all over again but it is not he is thinking of. I'm damn wrong in believing we can still make it,, happily and well good! I'm soo damn excited about the whole thing, about the prize i will give to him, well he claimed it, and we were both happy with it,, and like all the beautiful stories, it ended, but mine is totally shocking, but i still fighting the urge to cry and scream , for what reason, being a dumb and a dreamer about things that were not destine to happen again? we played a character, and all the curiosities people could muster are with us, ut the hell we care, i care! we are just good, that's it,,, and now i'm totally good in crying my desperation over the event,, it tastes sweet, but the bitterness of the end will linger for eternity,, i guess.

you just don't understand!

We're squatting to find books that can give us the interest in reading it. It's my 2nd time in my senior year to borrow another book on which i should read and utilize all the ideas i can get from it. I stumble a book that entitled "You Just Don't Understand!",,it really stirred my interest why it is entitled that way. Reading the synopsis just give me a reason to think,,,it reads " Why do men criticize and insult women and why does women nag men?" . "Men and women have their own worlds even if their under the same roof",,it's so damn right!

like a crab's character!

every one is on the run,,wanting to have the glory of the finish line,,,everybody is blood thirsty to have it,,but only one can be the ONE!

the above maybe into some action stunts, but it is in the real world,, we can't deny the emerging character that individual possessed and wanted to be reflected but is'nt it disgusting that this kind of idiotism and behavior been into open?

there something that really put me into awe and annoyance,,,they try to build a war and rivalry but want it to be that they are the affected party and not the "villain" of the situation. they blame this quiet party for being so sure of themselves and somehow "selfish" of their own world,,which for my further analyzation over things were damn false accusations!

is'nt it really an LOL stuff that both of these "affected" parties the leader of their bands,can be considered the wise men of their party but it seems they showed nothing less but and over-powering $@??*^%!

the hell i care by the way!!!!

dazzled and buffled!

i just don't understand it! why the ghost and pain of yesterday is dragging itself back to me?
i want to move on and lead my life as to what i want it to be but i can't for something is holding me on and i know i can't resist it! is it some kind of the game i don't want to play again or some kind of feeling i don't want to feel once more?

it gives me ideas, and i think false one too...try to make me believe again and a part of me wanted to!

games of nausea!

is'nt it ironic, once you had let go of something yet your still dreaming and craving to want it back!
you had let it slipped away for your thinkng it wasn't worthy for your time and attention but when you saw it waving away for you,,your holding back the tears that wanted to stream down your face.. you tend to be sober for a while, felt the enigma of emptiness and lies and then wanted to shout and scream for that something tocome back and have it's way back to your care. but needless to say,, you can't have it back,,sorry!

busied and dazzled!

lots of works to be accomplished, lots of things to be considered, lots of things to be dump and burned!
surprisingly, i don't feel the pressure to work on something that i know must be done as soon as possible for there's a lot of consideration that matters most. i just don't know why i'm into these way of feeling and thinking but i know it must be and i must be. first, there is the special project which is due on september for we will have our pre oral defense but until now i can't have the draft to work on,, second, lots of responsibilities and duties to carry on and execute for there are lots of eyes wathcing me. maybe it's my thought over things but i do feel that way. third,projects that need to be finished before the due time....weeeew,,, when will this end????

think and decide!

making decisions is sometimes a little bit scary, awful and tiresome! within this week, i had faced so much that requires my "YES" and "NO" statement...and it really confused me and really got me to trouble,tiring my brain to squeezed out some of its brain cells to work out a decision that would be right, worthy and in the right "sense", i guess.
with all these hushes and pushes, it just tires me a lot and just let my self to wonder and lost into a deep thought which sometimes makes me fathom of its importance, to think things that seems not necessarily to spend time to think!

pressured!

so many things to be accomplished but there's only so little time to do it!!! it really frustrating to think that you can't chase and overtake the possibilities that is running out....i had those things that claiming the first place of my list,,,,but still i can't make out if which is which to be first!!!! hahaha.....buggling isn't it??? all i need is to have a time management i guess!

so cruel

here i am again, suffering from pain, disappointmnet and betrayal. over and over i felt it, and over and over i let my self feel the pain, making my soul and sanity twisted and screaming for death. it takes four hard blow before i came into realization, it can't be and it would never be. hoping and dreaming for somewthing that never give guarantees of making it come true, just give me a shuddering blow. it makes my brain explode into bits. my head just ache, thinking where did i go wrong and what made it to happen. i'm just true to myself. eventhough there's a voice within me that kept saying "just forget all those things, live a new life, everything will be fine, look forward!." still, as being true to myself, i let my self be numb, deaf and blind with all those hushes. i take a chance and this chance work! that's what i thought! haha.... again it happen.... lies...lies...hopo....hope and promises,,,they were so cruel!!!

i'm surviving

its better to enjoy life committing mistakes and learn, rather playing safe in your entire life...and learning nothing at all!! damn those mocks and criticism they had on you....after all...who's life are you living????

sometimes....

sometimes, its hard to be strong,,for you had no right cry

sometimes, its hard to be understanding, for you had no right to ask why?

sometimes, its hard to be always happy, for you had no right to be sad

and sometimes, its hard to be 'alone', for you had no right to be loved!!

Promises

Deciding whether or not to trust a person is like deciding whether or not to climb a tree, because you might get a wonderful view from the highest branch, or you might simply get covered in sap, and for this reason many people choose to spend their time alone and indoors, where it is harder to get a splinter.